The Promise: A Confession of a Hopeless Romantic

"Maybe in another lifetime, we will be together and I can make you and your love stay. Someday, I will get over you. But for now, let me love you until this heart of mine gets tired seeking for your love that was once mine." 

If I fall in love with you, I promise to always be the last goodnight kiss, ikaw rin ang magiging huling mensahe sa aking cellphone, ang boses ko rin ang siyang huling tinig na maririnig mo sa iyong telepono at ang siya ring boses na gigising at babatiin ka ng "magandang umaga!"

I promise na ibibigay ko sa iyo ang huling bahagi ng piraso ng cake, ang huling kagat, ang huling panlasa nang kung anuman ang ating kinakain, miski pa ito na ang masasabi kong pinakamasarap sa lahat ng aking natikman na pagkain. Mga simpleng bagay na kaya kong isakripisyo para lang sa iyo. 

If I fall in love with you, lagi kitang isasaalangalang sa bawat desisyon na aking gagawin, kasali ka sa bawat ngiti, bawat pagsasaya at handa akong sayo iaalay maging ang pinakamahihirap na sandali, pangako ko sa iyo na magiging tapat akong palagi sa iyo kahit pa nakakainis ka sa tigas ng ulo mo at magalit ka man sa akin. 

Pangako ko sa iyo na mamahalin kita mula sa pinakamaliit hanggang sa pinakamalalaking mga bagay sa buhay na ito. I promise to love you more each and every day, because I know I will...

Ituturing kitang parang isang hari at pangako ko rin na palagi akong nariyan in all your proudest and humblest moments. Hahalikan ko ang iyong noo upang mapawi ang iyong agam-agam. Huwag kang mangamba, narito ako at handang dumamay sa iyo sa tuwina. Hawak ko ang iyong mga kamay at hindi kita bibitawan kahit anong mangyari. 

I'll trace all the wrinkles on your lovely cute face, the fats on your cheeks, the lines on your forehead and I will memorize every part of you, even all those things you'd want to conceal--because I love every bit of you. 

I promise to grow old with you. I will teach you things you don't understand and try my hardest to learn what I can from you. Pangako na handa rin akong makinig sa lahat ng oras sa iyong mga kwento gaano man iyan ka nonsense o isa itong makabuluhan man. 

I will love you in every way I can. 

I have always loved loudly, loved fully, loved fiercely and unapologetically. 

Hindi ako natatakot na magmahal ng labis sapagkat alam kong ang nararamdaman kong ito ay tunay. 

Call me crazy, call me weird. Call me anything you like. i really don't care. 

I believe the strongest of relationships are the ones where you don't think, the ones that you just fall into, give into, and say, "I'm going all in!"

I believe in the imbalance of love, that it's always give & take, give and give, take and give and a mix of everything in-between. And i don't care if at times I tend to give love a little bit too much, a little too strong, and a little more. 

Bakit ganito ako? Wala naman batas ang pagmamahal. And I love loving you. Wala naman akong nakikitang masama doon. As long as wala akong tinatapakang ibang tao, walang taong nasasaktan maliban sa sarili ko, kaya kong ibigay ang lahat ng pagmamahal ko. Siksik, liglig at nag-uumapaw pa. 

I'm not afraid to love you more because there's no definition that can capture what it means to hold someone else's heart into your hands, to feel their body under your fingertips, pulsing and terrifying and amazingly alive. There's no words for the way two people's eyes see into each other's souls, for how they can suddenly mesh their lives and their happiness into one another so fully, so fearlessly, so openly, so incredibly. 

I'm not afraid to love you more because that's who I am. 

I love you with all that I am and all that I have. 

I won't be timid, won't overthink, won't stand on the edge and hold myself back. Because even if I end up at a loss, I gave my everything to something I wanted, at least I have tried and I will

not have an ounce of regrets later on. 

Even if I gave it all for nothing, I'm not afraid of being the girl who loves more. 

Because that is part of my promise. And because deep inside, I am one hopeless romantic. 

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